RinxLen Story ch.12 part 3

I Just Found out I'm Addicted to You

Chapter 12: Talent Show of Fragile Hearts Part 3

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Rin's P.O.V

I looked at Len. Even though he was laughing, I could tell that something was really bothering him. I wish he would tell me...

Mikuo, on the other hand, kept on staring at me and averted his gaze whenever I looked at him.

What are these two hiding from me?

With each passing second, I begin to grow uneasy. I felt that this wasn't just a simple talent show... It was a talent show of fragile hearts.

I placed my hand over my chest and felt the soft beating of my heart. Everyone around me has their hearts on display for others to see... My own included.

Len Kagamine had changed so much in my life... He made me able to open up to others after that happened.

He...

I clutched at the fabric over my heart.

He made me love again.

Love... That was something that I thought had become an alien emotion to me.

Now that I was feeling it again... It made me feel warm, happy, excited and anxious all at once... It was so much different from last time.

This is happiness, isn't it Mom?

"Rinny... You look awfully pensive. What are you thinking about?"

I snapped out of my trance and looked up at Miku.

"I'm thinking about nothing and everything at the same time, if that makes any sense at all."

She nodded in understanding. Besides Len, Miku is the only person who knows about my past and present. All of the little details in between as well...

"Now for the last act of the night, Rin and Len Kagamine will sing a song they made named 'Juvenile'!"

"You're up."

I sighed, "Yeah, I guess..."

"Rin, I did it... You can too. Tell Len how you feel."

I couldn't help but blush a little, "Y-yeah right..."

I quickly turned and made my way towards the curtain, bumping into someone.

"Yo, I know you're excited to perform with me but c'mon, you can't just tackle me."

I glared at Len, "Shut up, or I'll punch you."

He nodded, "Yes, your highness."

"Will you stop stealing my lines?"

I recognized Mikuo's voice immediately and slightly stiffened. It had gotten awkward for me to talk to him ever since his sister told me he loved me.

"Tch, who invited you Mikuo?"

"I invite myself, and besides Rin has no problem talking to me, right Rin?'

Sure, if Miku had never told be about certain stuff, Mikuo and I could be good friends.

I gulped and nodded.

Mikuo smirked and then innocently stated, "See Len? Rin and I are friends so I don't see why you get mad when I talk to her."

"Tch."

Suddenly, the atmosphere changed around us and Mikuo gave Len a small glare, "End the game now."

Len tensed and his jaw tightened.

End the game? What game?

My blue eyes darted from Len to Mikuo. Now I am sure that they are definately hiding something.

Len rolled his eyes and took my hand, nudging me towards the curtain, "Let's go Rin."

I looked back at Mikuo, but he avoided my gaze. He had a look of sadness and remorse hinting on his face.

What happened to his cheery mood that he had earlier?

I shook Mikuo out of mind. I need to focus on singing my lines correctly. If I think of Mikuo I'll get nervous and mess up. It's funny how even though I have been around him since the beginning of the semester, I never actually talked to him, much less befriended him, until the accident... Must be an act of fate I guess.

I took a deep breath and hesitated before going onstage. Len gave me a reassuring squeeze to my shoulder.

I nodded in understanding and together we walked through the curtain.

"Well here are Rin and Len Kagamine, whenever you're ready guys."

Len nodded and took a deep breath. I. Also breathed in deeply and the music began to play.

"And I've just found I'm addicted to you

I love the way you feel turn me on more"

My prerecorded voice sang in the background. I made Len change it to a chipmunk tone that way if anyone asked who sang that part I could easily say it was Len. Hah, I'm so smart.

"Kagamine Rin, in the place to be

Be-together ring, no doubt

Turn it up, Turn it up" Len started singing.

"Hand-in-hand over time, meeting each other eye-to-eye.

Can I trust in this strange and newborn feeling?

Don't you ever let me go, or wander from me to and fro

Now I know that a lovely night is about to begin." I sang next.

Will this really be a lovely night?

As I saw Len next to me and felt my heart skip a beat, I knew it might be.

Len's P.O.V

"She's the cutest girl that I know in her class

If I want to get her email should I just ask?

Maybe I am a kinda cool guy...

There's no need for me to be acting kinda shy."

Of course I'm cool! Rin added the "kinda" part to lower my self esteem but c'mon, I radiate awesome and she knows it.

"Yeah, I think I am handsome, really

I chose my clothes carefully, good enough surely

Although I know I am a still little scrawny

I'm growing up, my peak is starting soon already."

"Yet I find this situation kinda awkward

I can't tell if this love is really it

But we're going out together aren't we?

We should be able to walk arm-in-arm easily."

Heh, I kinda lied in this part. No, me and Rin aren't going out. I admit it, even being near her in some occasions makes me sweat and get clumsy and stuff so scratch the walking arm in arm out.

But I am sure that I love Rin. I am in love with the short transfer student that won me over slowly and steadily. I glanced at Rin and she was looking over to an opening behind stage where Mikuo stood.

"Hey hey, wait! Who are you looking at there?

Why are you giving that cool guy a flirty stare?

I don't get it, she's just like a fickle cat

A cute lady, with an easy-changed heart." I sang, though these were never intended to be part of the song. Why is Mikuo always butting in?

Because he loves her too.

Shut up L. Stop reminding me.

You're going to screw up soon aren't you? C'mon if you don't tell Rinny Rin Rin about the bet, Mikuo will do it for you and that won't be preeeetttyyy~...

I know that! Now let me think clearly!

Fine, be that way. Here I am, a conscience trying to help but nooooo~. Fine! I'll just watch you mess up!

"Don't think I am oblivious, I can see what's in your eyes

I know that you are in love with me

But understanding the feeling, is different from realizing

So could you teach me the magic of this thing called love?"

I nearly laughed as I saw how red Rin had turned when singing that part. She is so cute.

Hmmm, actually I would love to show her what it was to love someone. After what she had been through...

Could she really trust me? I think she already does... I hope she does because I love her with all my heart.

I remember how Miku told me that true love could happen even to me, the evil cold player who loved no one. As I looked at Rin's warm and sparkling sea blue eyes, and knew that it was true.

I have found it in Rin.

If something happened to her or she grew to hate me...

I don't know what I'll do. I'd go crazy...

The day that Rin almost got run over I felt like I was dying inside. Rin had become my life... I love her dearly. That day was one of the only days in my life in which I have cried... I was relieved when I felt her in my arms. I could've cried all day and thanked God for returning her to me because without her I'd rather die.

Because... I just found out that I'm addicted to her.

"And I've just found I'm addicted to you

I love the way you feel turn me on more"

Heh, just on cue.

Never, in my whole life, did I think I would ever feel this way.

That I would be in love...

Heh, if I went back in time and told my player self that I would stop going out with random girls and fall in love with the new transfer student, he would've thought I was crazy and shot me down before that happened.

Yet now that it has happened... Please don't let it end.

I have to thank Kaito and Miku for giving me Rin. They knew I needed serious help and sent me a golden angel.

Thank you...

Rin's P.O.V

"He said some compliments telling me that

I am adorable and a fun girl

He's seducing me (That's what I think)

I say okay, but maybe too quick"

It's true every time he said something to compliment me, I blushed and just reverently nodded. It's just that I don't know how to respond.

I love him, don't I?

"He's pretty cute (A little small, I know)

And rather smart (sometimes childish, although)

But don't think I'm making any complaints!

I might as well love him, is what I'm trying to say."

Yeah, he's not as strong and tall as Gakupo, Mikuo, or Kaito but he is the guy I love. Hmph! Len always calls me short (when he is only a couple inches taller) so this is my revenge...

Smart? Yep... Straight A's that guy...

"But then I see that other cool guy

He seems like someone I might like

I'm not sure I believe in destiny

I'm not sure I've met the one who's right for me"

While I sang this part, I take a glance at Mikuo who is standing on the sidelines. Destiny is something hard to believe in... Yet if it does exist, then was it on purpose that Mikuo rescued me and we became friends? Is there a hidden reason for that?

No... Destiny or no destiny, I love Len... I think. I've never been seriously in love so I don't know what to expect.

Are these sweaty palms and beating heart a product of this "love"?

I don't know; I'm seriously confused. Haku said love is when you can't stop thinking about a person, will give everything for them, and can't imagine a life without them. Hmmm... I am in love then...

Because ever since that day in the classroom, when we had accidentally touched hands, I knew this guy would change something in my life. He slowly pried out my wretched past... He stayed by my side and shared my pain, alleviating my burden. Len waited patiently and comforted me when I thought no one would. At first I thought that I was just another of his conquests like Miki and Miku, but the latter had convinced me otherwise.

I'll never forget our memorable date...

Or his warm smile...

Or his shining cerulean eyes...

His hand atop mine...

My beating heart...

My hardened shield nothing more than a distant memory...

"So I've got to ask, are you the one?

My heart's beating so fast it's worrisome

This evening's stars that are coming soon

Are shining with my wish"

I wish…that this day would never end…because I have a feeling that everything will be different after today.

"Hand-in-hand over time, meeting each other eye-to-eye

Can I trust in this strange and newborn feeling?

Don't you ever let me go, or wander from me to and fro

Now I know that a lovely night is about to begin."

"I know what love is… it's a thing

Okay maybe it's a little harder to explain

But my heart keeps saying "I really want to see her"

Before I'm defeated, I just want to sing:

Let me the one that you choose

You have no real choice besides me, do you?

Stop looking around at other guys, please

I just really want you to come back to me."

I don't look at other guys! Okay so maybe a little but only at Mikuo!

...Because he is my friend!

Geez is that how I really act?

"What's this now? You play a patient guy?

All the stuff you're saying, it's so old-time!

You know I really, really hate commitment

I'll do just whatever it is I want!"

"Okay, I'm with you, but it's not like that

I just did it 'cause I felt like coming back

Huh? What was that? I'm not a tsundere!

I really don't care what it is you say!"

"Always misunderstanding, but I find you fascinating

I'm thinking about you all day long

Alright I will promise, not to look at someone else

This love that we share is starting over now..."

As you've noticed... This song is pretty out of character for me... Yep, but since Len beat me in a staring contest then I have to put up with it I guess...

People might think I actually mean it though...

"Na Na Na Na…

Comin' up yo

How we wanna know it

Go shawty, Go shawty

We're gonna do it like this" Len sang the ending lines and was welcomed by his fangirls screaming.

I swear I'll throw my shoe at all the girls who are fangirling over my Len!

Oh crap...

I didn't mean that!

No! He's not mine! I mean... Augh! Forget you heard anything!

Len smirked and hugged me tightly.

The color rushed to my face and my head felt light.

Len, you're not helping!

Then, his warm hand engulfed mine and I felt the heat from his hand transfer to mine, heating my heart.

My ice cold heart was now a puddle of water... Winter had turned to spring.



Miku's P.O.V

Hmmm, Piko...

What had he meant when he said, "What I want is something I can't have?"

He seems cheery and funny, but that phrase is full of yearning and sadness.

I wonder what he was talking about...

Piko keeps on staring at Miki almost adoringly... Is that what he meant? Miki?

But aren't they friends and stuff?

Plus, why wouldn't he be able to have-

Her love…

He wants her love, but her heart belongs to Len.

Ah, I see what's going on... Hah! And some people have the nerve to say that I'm slow!

Poor Piko...

On the other hand, Rin and Len seemed pretty delighted with tonight.

Come on Rin, confeeeesss~...

I took a quick look at my brother whose face was twisted into a sour grimace.

My heart ached for him. He just witnessed Rin with Len singing a song about love.

How I wish I could help my dear brother.

Why did he have to fall in love with Rin? I mean he could have any other girl except my best friend. I sighed, he has to confess as well so Rin can definitely put a stop to his dreams and make him accept the cruel reality.

I just hope he doesn't...

"Miku, I'll be back. I need to get some water."

I nodded and let my boyfriend leave... I was too preoccupied with my thoughts to notice that Gakupo had also left.

Something is up between those three...

And I have a feeling it isn't anything good.


Rin's P.O.V

"Hey Rin, I forgot my bag in the classroom. I'll be back."

"Okay Len,"

"Hey, you did great."

I looked up to see Len smiling proudly.

"Y-you were also good."

He smirked and closed his eyes, "Of course I did. I am awesome like that."

I rolled my eyes, "Whatever, your fangirls think the same."

"Jealous?"

My eyes widened and my cheeks burned.

"N-no! G-go get your bag already!" I yelled while avoiding his gaze.

"I am~!" He said and walked away.

I walked back to where Miku was seated.

"Good job Rin!"

"Ah, thanks you did well too."

My foot then hit something. I looked down and saw it was a journal.

I picked it up and studied the smooth black cover.

In neat handwriting it had a name printed:

Len Kagamine, Room 202B

"What's that?"

"It's Len's English journal. Hm, I'll go return it to him. He's in the room anyway."

"M'kay~! But come back quickly okay?"

"I will." I said and ran out of the auditorium and towards the B building.

Entering the building and going up the stairs, I walked towards the room.

I reached it, but my hand froze on the handle.

I heard Len's voice...And Gakupo's?

I know it is bad to eavesdrop but I still pressed my ear against the door.

My eyes widened and my heart stopped.

The notebook slowly slid from my fingers...


Len's P.O.V

"So are you going to tell her soon?"

My eyes hadn't adjusted to the darkness of the room, but I easily recognized the voice. Rain had begun to fall and the sky was darkening quickly.

"Gakupo?"

"Yeah... I knew you would come here so that is why I came."

"Tell who what?"

"Rin about the bet you and Kaito made."

"What?"

"I was a bystander to all of this, but not anymore. Want to know something?"

My eyes finally adjusted to the darkness and I made my way to Gakupo, "What?"

"I've known Rin since elementary school. That is how I know her. We went to elementary school and half of middle school together. She was my first friend, did you know that? That is why I can't allow you to keep on playing with her."

"I'm not playing with her! I love her! Yes, I was stupid to accept that bet but thanks to that I got to know her. She is my life!" I yelled.

"If that is so then why haven't you told her? Why haven't you told her that you were with her due to a bet? Why? She will forgive you because she LOVES you, idiot!"

I was taken aback. I expected this from Mikuo, but not from Gakupo. He was the one I least expected to have connections with Rin...

"First Mikuo and now you? Can't I do this on my own?"

"Mikuo?"

"Yes! He loves Rin too!"

Gakupo went silent.

"That doesn't change the fact that you bet Kaito one hundred dollars that you could make Rin fall for you."

"I told you already that-"

In that instant, we heard a thump and a squeak outside the door. Hm, maybe it's Kaito...

But he doesn't squeak.

I walked to the door and cautiously opened it.

On the floor lay my English journal...

I left it in the auditorium...

The only person who knew where I was and would probably bring it was...

The door was slightly opened ajar.

I ran to the hallway door and thrust it open; the rain engulfed me in a cold blanket as soon as I stepped outside.

My heart stopped and my blood froze...

She wasn't anywhere in sight...

"RIN!"